Tuesday 8th March
I got back home last Saturday and its been a busy time cleaning the house and settling back into my home routine, I miss everyone in Coventry and it’s great to see everyone back here at home.
I’ve got my monthly meet-up tomorrow night and I am looking forward to that. If you are reading this on my website you will know I have at last published all my blog posts and I am working on getting everything else up to date. There is still some stuff I’ve not done for my members, but hopefully I will get to those by the end of the week. That at least is my aim. Watch this space.
Since I got back from my parents house at the weekend I have been reflecting on the time I spent there. It was so nice to just ‘be’ with my parents, when I went there it was to help my mum as she had been so poorly. I am wondering now if it was actually more about my dad.
For as long as I can remember I have seen my dad as irritating and argumentative. A man who although means well, is difficult to spend time with and although I would have said I love him I wouldn’t have wanted to be in his company for too long.
Over this time I have just spent with him all that changed for me. With my deepening understanding of life I was able to drop a lot of the stories I have had about him in my mind and I really ‘saw’ him for the first time in a very long time.
It surprised me to see he is a good and interesting man, I did know that, but it was so hidden by my story I had forgotten it. I paid it lip service, like we do, but my actions around him would have told you a different story.
I would love to spend more time with him. He is in the early stages of dementure and I really hope that I get the chance to see more of him while his mind is still with us. That is something that has become very important to me now.